Jade’s Divine

I have to do my taxes so I can do the FAFSA one last time.
I have to do research for a mineral nutrition experiment.
I have to read loooong plays.
I have to read theories by theorists.
Laundry is piling up.
Sink is full.

Everything is just so blah-zaie. It has been for a couple weeks. The winter weather can go away any time now. Cold and snow doesn’t help my situation.

Everything else in life that has been going on besides the aforementioned list of ‘chores’ seems to be falling apart. I have friends I can talk to, but I know it won’t help, and a majority of them are scattered about. It doesn’t help when I’m stuck here all by myself lacking funds to get away.

The only thing I’m getting really excited about is spring break. It’s my last one. This will be the first time ever I didn’t have to work. My friend Cristina and I planning a hiking trip out west

This’ll be good. I need this.

“…a good man, who has the misfortune to lose his son or anything else which is most dear to him, will bear the loss with more equanimity than another? Yes. But will he have no sorrow, or shall we say that although he cannot help sorrowing he will moderate his sorrow?

Tell me: Will he be more likely to struggle and hold out against his sorrow when he is seen by his equals, or when he is alone? It will make a great difference whether he is seen or not. When he is by himself he will not mind saying or doing many things which he would be ashamed of anyone hearing or seeing him do? True. There is a priniciple of law and reason in him which bids him resist, as well as a feeling of his misfortune which is forcing him to indulge his sorrow? True.

But when a man is drawn in two opposite directions, to and from the same object, this, as we affirm, neccssarily implies two distinct principles in him? Certainly. One of them is ready to follow the guidance of the law? How do you mean? The law would say that to be patient under suffering is best and that we should not give way to impatience, as there is no knowing whether such things are good or evil: and nothing is gained by impatience: also, because no human thing is of serious importance, and grief stands in the way of that which at the moment is most required.

What is most required? That we should take counsel about what has happened, and when the dice have been thrown, order our affairs in the way which reason deems best; not, like children who have had a fall, keeping hold of the part struck and wasting time in setting up a howl, but always accustoming the soul forthwith to apply a remedy, raising up that which is sickly and fallen, banishing the cry of sorrow by the healing art….”

School starts tomorrow. Excited, and at the same time not; already checked out a couple of the course outlines, and they do not look pretty.

I like grocery shopping, I would do it more often if other things didn’t keep coming up…like Christmas….ick.